如何能說"我想我是他的最愛" 悲情男歡女愛

sweet beginning

1.甜美的開端

My abusive relationship started out really sweet. There were romantic date nights, spontaneous getaways, flowers, sweets, teddy bears, gifts and tons of attention and care. I did not feel anything wrong from the beginning. But then the relationship turned out sour. As soon as he realized that I was his, he stopped putting efforts into our relationship.

我的男友經常虐待我，但其實我們的關係一開始的時候很甜美。有許多約會的晚上，我們都很浪漫地度過，怡然自得的旅行，鮮花，糖果，泰迪熊，禮物以及無數的關愛。在開始的時候我沒感覺到任何不對的地方。但是我們的關係最終變壞了。一旦他開始意識到我已經是他的了，他就不再花心思來經營我們的感情了。

wine is the best friend

2.紅酒成了最好的朋友

When my ex hung out with his friends, red wine was my best friend. I knew I could not meet my friends because he would get angry at me, so I filled my evenings and nights with tears and too much red wine. I did not feel better, though. I woke up with severe headaches and felt weak and exhausted.

當我的前任男友和朋友鬼混的時候，紅酒成了我最好的朋友。我知道我不能去見我的朋友，因爲他會對我生氣，因此我每天晚上以淚洗面，用大量紅酒來麻痹自己。但是我並沒有感覺好一點。我醒來的時候，頭很疼，而且感覺疲憊不堪，身體虛弱。

3.I have made myself a priority

3.我現在最重視自己

If no one made me a priority, I came to a conclusion that I had to do it myself. Now I know that no one, including a boyfriend, is going to value me until I learn to value and respect myself first. I stop waiting for approval from others. If I want to do something, I will do it. I’m still trying to put myself first in any situation and I believe that I have enough power to move forward.

如果沒有人重視我，我最終懂得需要自己珍惜自己。現在我知道，如果我不懂得重視和尊重自己，我的男朋友或者其他人也不會珍視我。我不再等待其他人的同意。如果我想做什麼事情，我就會去做。在任何時候，我都會將自己放在第一位，我相信我有足夠的能力一直走下去。