雙語暢銷書《艾倫圖靈傳》第8章:面朝大海(275)

The 'undergraduate uniform' had no conscious effect on Ron. In any case his attention was now concentrated entirely on the restaurant and its happenings.

“大學生制服”對羅恩沒有任何影響。無論如何，他現在的注意力完全集中在餐館及其發生的事情上。

Alec was enjoying himself now. Usually when he went to a restaurant he felt self-conscious, either for being alone or for not doing the right thing.

他很享受現在這種感覺，因爲在通常情況下，每次去飯店，他都會感覺很不自然，或許是因爲孤獨，或許是因爲沒有做成該做的事。

As it happened, this was where the surviving pages came to an end—and at an appropriate point, for lonely consciousness of self-consciousness was at the centre of his ideas.

在留下來的手稿中，這是最後一段，冥冥之中像是天意，因爲"孤獨"正是圖靈的自我意識核心。

But that self-consciousness went beyond Godelian self-reference, abstract mind turning upon its abstract self.

但這種自我意識，卻超越了哥德爾式的內省，這是一種抽象的意識，本身又建立在一個抽象的自我之上。

There was in his life a mathematical serpent, biting its own tail for ever, but there was another one that had bid him eat from the tree of knowledge.

在圖靈的生活中，數學就像一條永遠追咬自己尾巴的大蛇，還有另一條蛇，鼓動他去摘那智慧樹上的果子。

Hilbert once said that Cantor's theory of the infinite had created 'a paradise', from which mathematicians were not to be driven out.

希爾伯特曾經說，康託的理論爲數學家們建立了一個得以永遠安身的天堂。

But Alan Turing lost that paradise, not because of what he thought but what he did. His problem lay in doing: doing or not doing the right thing.

但圖靈卻在這個天堂裏迷失了，不是因爲他的思想，而是因爲他的行爲。

No one in June 1954 perceived a symbolism in the apple that he ate, an apple filled with the poison of the 1940s.

1954年6月，圖靈咬了那顆蘋果，沒有人察覺到這裏的隱喻——那顆蘋果浸滿了40年代的毒藥。

Without the context, the symbol had no meaning, and could no more be interpreted than the other tiny clues he left. He might even have had the symbolism in mind before the war, when he mentioned his suicide plan to his friend James Atkins. For it came just at the time when he had (in an equally off-hand fashion) mentioned to his mother his unsureness about the 'morality' of cryptography.

在戰爭發生之前，圖靈心中似乎就埋下了這種隱喻，當時他跟母親談到了密碼學的道德問題，並且跟阿特金斯注說過自殺。